Day 4 of the Ralph Waldo Emerson “Self-Reliance” project, #Trust30. Click here for my project archives.
I don’t have to ponder this question for 48 hours, I know the answer:
I must relinquish my fixation on external circumstances.
Too often I use what’s around me as an excuse for what’s going wrong in my life or with my writing.
“I can’t write because I’m stressed about [the cold, work, moving, whatever you please].”
I never trust my instincts when it comes to my own decisions, constantly second guessing myself and/or giving more weight to what other people think.
I’ve used the past as a buffer to keep me from living.
I have most of the answers I need, but I’ve refused to listen to myself and apply my knowledge.
I’d rather take the path of least resistance so it’s never my responsibility when things get difficult or go totally pear-shaped.
Time to be a lotus and let go.
Suddenly, I’m feeling excited about my life and feeling positive about the future, even though I have no idea what will happen and where I will end up (Germany, Ethiopia, Sweden, Istanbul, Sri Lanka?). My spidey sense tells me that somehow it’s all going to work out fine.
And even if it doesn’t, I will still have many stories to tell.